Manual for Self

So, here I am. I'm meant to be writing the 'position manual' for my current job to ease the transition for whomever takes my place. But its hard getting the motivation cause I know how long its going to take and how tedious it will be. I'm writing down [and photographing] things that I already know - know because I either devised them or assisted in their design. For me, writing is exploration. Its about probing the depths of my understanding, about structuring my thoughts, about drawing conclusions from the quagmire of my brain. This job manual is like writing a catalogue. Boring. But it must be done, or someone is going to be looking at the mess I've left behind and have no understanding how it works or how it interoperates. Sigh.

OTH, my plans for this year were changing. I was hoping to make a whole bunch (3-4) of music videos, possibly a couple of shorts, and generally be a busy production man. The hope was to get repped by a production company that does TVCs/Music Videos (c.f. the one I'm about to leave). Now that I'm going to be working at [name withheld] on the following movies [names withheld], that plan has to change. I'll be still making the big Gabriel Day's filmclip (if they ever get the money!) and perhaps another clip. But basically, I want to do three things: write more screenplays (including finishing the three I'm working on now); write more music; and finally, make a short. The short I want to be small, intimate, partly improvised. I want to use the same kind of experimental techniques I had when I was writing short stories. But I don't want it to be this mammoth production job either. I'm getting older and I, of all bloody people, am losing energy. I don't have the capacity to bring together heaps of these big umpteen day shots with a billion extras any more. As selfish as it sounds (and is), I need to do stuff for me. I think that'll actually liberate me from being selfish in my normal life and become a more accessible and open person [again].